I know somewhere I have pictures of this house in the summer time when the bridal bushes were blooming and the buckeye tree was leafed out, but all I could come up with was this winter scene from 1962 when we first moved to Iowa from Schell City, Mo. This house near Keystone, Iowa has a long history as most places do, starting back in the 1800's when the farm was homesteaded by a family from Germany. I don't know what year the house was built, but I imagine it was considered grand for the time. There was a cistern by the back entry room that went into the kitchen. A small room off the kitchen was big enough for a long table. The cupboard in the kitchen wall had doors on both sides so dishes could be taken out of the cupboard in the dining room or kitchen to set the table. Between that table in the dining room and another table in the kitchen during harvest season the help could all sit down to eat. Three other doors were in the kitchen south wall. One door led to the living room which had two doors on the west side for two bedrooms. One of the bedrooms was later turned into a bathroom. Until then the outhouse was just north of the smokehouse behind the house and is still there. The second door in the kitchen led to the full basement under the house, and the third door led to a large parlor with a shiny wooden floor. A door in the dining room led to the parlor, too, which was handy when they had company. I can imagine parties and dances being held in that room. The enclosed front porch led right into the parlor or left into the living room or straight ahead upstairs to two bedrooms and an unfinished room known as the attic. I don't know why that room was never finished off, but it was always the room to store odd and ends in. Once in the early 1980's, two women stopped by to walk around the place. We were living in the mobile home. Our son, Duane, was outside so the women talked to him. I didn't realize the elderly woman of the two was part of the original family until it was too late. The women left, and Duane came in to tell me the elderly woman was brought by her daughter to look around the home place. She described a walnut grove where one lone walnut tree stood in the pasture. A small grove of apple trees were out there and a row of elms along the fence. Some of the elms were there at the time, but none of the apple trees. It was just before 1900 when the elderly woman's father decided to re-roof the barn, and tragedy struck the family. One of her brothers, around thirteen, wanted to help the neighbor men who came to work on the barn. Her father told the boy he was too young to be on the barn's steep roof. The boy begged to be allowed to help, and his father gave in, a decision he regretted later. The boy fell off the roof and broke his leg. The bone pushed out of the skin. This was at a time when there wasn't a doctor near them so all the family could do was take care of the boy. His leg got gangrene and in a few days he died. There wasn't a church and minister either at that time so someone tracked down a traveling minister and asked him to do the funeral service at the house. At that time, everyone had their own cemeteries on the land so the boy became the first one and as it turned out the last to be buried under one of the elms in the pasture. His grave had a wooden cross at the head and with time the cross rotted away. Memory of his death and grave disappeared with time. From this story, I came up with a story I will put in my blog next. The barn had three rooms. The one on the east was the milk parlor. I don't know how the farmer used the middle room, but the room on the east was the chicken house. The hatchery set south of the barn. I suppose the upstairs was the hatching room and the bottom was where the chicks were sold or raised. At one time a young man slept upstairs in the hatchery and took care of the chickens until the hatchery burnt. Kerosene incubators started fires many times, but I don't know if that was the cause. I know in the eighteen years my husband, son, and I lived in the mobile home we put the barn to use with a sheep flock, a goat herd, raising pigs and calves. After 1900, the farmer and his wife were old enough to retire and wanted to move to Keystone to live so one of their son took over the farm. There wasn't an old age pension in those days so the son paid so much a month for farm rent, and that was what the elderly couple lived on. All was going well until the Great Depression came. The prices of all agriculture related production dropped, and making a living was hard. The son sold the cows and laid off the hired hand that had been sleeping in the dining room turned into a bedroom. Lincoln highway/highway 30, a dirt road with foxtail wavering along the sides, was traveled by cars and pickups in the thirties. A gas station had opened up in Belle Plaine. The farmer decided to try his hand at selling gas. He pulled a chicken brooder house up by the road and got Standard Oil to lease a small place the brooder house/station set in front of the house. That might have been the second gas station on highway 30 in Benton County, Iowa. Behind the station beside the house were two cabins, each with a wall in the middle so both side could be rented to travelers. Later those two cabins were turned into chicken houses and moved a little further to the west. The idea for income might have been a good one but still the property taxes needed to be paid. In a few years, the farm was put up for sale to pay the taxes. Someone else paid the taxes and owned the whole farm, and the station may have been turned back into a chicken house. A structure was built for the station back from the highway which was being improved and ditches put in. In 1952, that station burnt, and another station was built a few more feet back from the highway and structure is still there today. Several renters lived in the house for a few years at a time and ran the station. The farm land was rented to other farmers. In the early fifties, the couple who lived in the house held a wedding for their daughter under th the buckeye tree in the front yard. In 1958, my grandparents lived there and operated the station. Plenty of company, many of their nine children and their children, visited my grandparents in that house. In 1962, they were old enough to retire and draw social security so they turned the station and house over to my parents. Dad and Mom eventually bought the acreage and lived there until Dad died in 1999 and Mom died in 2002. Mom was a great cook and knew how to fill the table with food for any occasion. We will always remember the family gathering there. Their grandson, my son, owns the property, and the memories of the good times there will always be in my family.

Fay's Reflections on Minnie's Home In The Hollow

Fred and Cyntitha Phillips My mother-in-law is about to turn a hundred years old and in the nursing home now. We're fortunate enough to have her life's story told by her to me when she was in her early nineties. Her memory was keen. I taped Minnie as I questioned her so I had her story in her words and added details. I self published her story for her large extended family so everyone would be able to have a reference book when questioned by grandchildren and great grandchildren. Even I have to go to Minnie's book and look up details. That's what happened when I brought home a framed and matted poem titled The Home In The Hollow Minnie had cut from a magazine or newspaper years ago. I've studied the poem and wondered what special place it was that Minnie connected the poem with. Finally, after going through the book, I had a duh moment. I've been in this family fifty six years and have been to the home in the hollow that Minnie felt was so special. Those of us who have been in the family half a century have all felt the same way, because each time we went to the home in the hollow the couple that lived there made us feel at home. Minnie probably couldn't phrase how she felt about place, and the poem did it for her. Now I am thrilled to be the keeper of the poem. This couple, Fred and Cyntitha (pronounced Sin tith a) Phillips were Minnie's parents. Behind Fred and his beloved Tithe, down the hill from the house, is Dye Creek. This is the last farm they owned together and was called the Dye Place. The roads are winding red clay and before street signs everyone gave directions to travelers to go by whoever lived along the road at the time. Fred and Tithe lived on this place from 1948 until Fred died in 1981 and shortly there after Tithe moved to Thayer, Missouri. I imagine the family named Dye were the first to homestead that farm or at least lived there for so many years that no one living could remember the first owners. Therefore the creek was given their name and the Dye place name stuck from years of their living in that hollow. No need to change it to the name Phillips place. Others wouldn't know here the farm was by that name. Harold knew his way around the area well since he started life there. We went so often that even I could find my way around. We'd get to a country driveway that headed north and one that headed south. The north one went to Minnie's sister Ethel and her husband Frandell Risner. The south driveway went to the Dye Place. The road had cattle guards on it to keep the cattle that grazed on grass and tree sprouts from getting out. Made for easier driving when we didn't have to get out to open and shut the barb wire fence gates. In no time, we made a bend and there was the meandering Dye Creek in the hollow and on the hill was Fred and Cyntitha's house with an open porch in front and one in back. The yard was fenced with a picket fence and yard gate. We drove through Dye Creek past the spring house that the cold spring water rushed through. In side that shed was milk, cream and butter chilling. In days gone by, that was the refrigerator. Fred and Tithe met us at the yard gate with greetings and hugs. The days there were spent eating Tithe's good cooking and resting under in the shade of the trees. Come dusk we listened to the crickets, frogs and whippoorwills. The very birds the poet was referring to.

Home In The Hollow by Frank Dycus 1987 There's a home in the hollow with a bubbling stream. Where I can lay down and dream and dream; And I can go places I've never been. And I can be old or a young child again, A home in the hollow where peace lives on, Where life can stand still with the breaking of the dawn. There's a home in the hollow with tall, tall, trees, Where wee creatures live way high in the leaves; And each night they join on their porches to sing, With the frogs and crickets by the ponds and the spring; And all the nightbirds join in on the song, And the home in the hollow feels like it belongs. There is a home in the hollow where the morning sunrise is a great breathless wonder to the beholder's eyes; Where a child can grow happy, wiser, and strong. And family ties can go on and on; Where people can share in the joy they give, At home in the hollow where the good people live. I'd never heard of Frank Dycus so I looked him up. Here is his biography. He is best known an accomplished songwriter. b. Marion Franklin Dycus, 5 December 1939, Hardmoney, Kentucky, USA. Dycus initially had no thoughts of pursuing a career as a songwriter. At school he was reckoned to be studious and was writing poems to his mother when he was 14. He relocated to California in 1955 and soon afterwards, he enlisted in the US Air Force. He learned to play guitar and with his friend, singer Don Gonsalez, formed a duo called Don And Frank. They attempted to be soundalike Everly Brothers and found regular bookings over two or three States sometimes opening for touring stars such as Jim Reeves and Buck Owens and for a time they were regulars on KPEG Spokane. After discharge in 1962, Dycus spent a short time in Nashville but failed to find work and eventually settled in Wichita, where he worked for Boeing in the aircraft industry and also hosted a radio show on KATE. In 1967, he returned to Nashville and worked as a songwriter in Pete Drake’s music publishing company. In 1970, Dycus formed his own company, Empher Music, in partnership with Larry Kingston and Roger Fox. They achieved several minor hits including Wynn Stewart’s Top 50 with ‘Paint Me A Rainbow’. In 1972, they sold their company to Dolly Parton and Porter Wagoner and Dycus joined Parton’s Owpar Publishing. He also managed Parton and Wagoner’s Fireside Recording Studios. At Wagoner’s instigation, Dycus made some recordings of a skiffle nature as Lonesome Frank And The Kitchen Band, with Wagoner helping out with backing vocal on some tracks. In 1979, he worked in Sweden with Abba’s drummer and other local musicians before returning to the USA to record an album that gained Swedish release on Sonet Records. In 1981, George Strait gained his first two Billboard chart hits with Dycus’ songs namely ‘Unwound’ (number 6) and ‘Down And Out’ (number 16) and the following year Strait gained another number 6 hit with the Dycus song, ‘Marina Del Rey’. In 1987, Dycus, who had been in failing health for sometime, had heart bypass surgery and was inactive for more than two years. In 1990, after initially deciding to retire from the music business, he formed a new publishing company in Nashville and gained further success with George Jones’ recordings of ‘I Don’t Need Your Rocking Chair’ and ‘Walls Can Fall’, songs he co-wrote with Billy Yates.

The Cave AKA Our Root Cellar

Here is an old picture from 1959 on our farm at Schell City, Missouri taken when I was a child by me. Mom gave me free rein with our camera and now I'm glad she did. My father had taken my Uncle Bob Hammontree, Uncle Moe Bright and Cousin Marvin Hammontree squirrel hunting on a fall day. My mother and Aunt Short were in the kitchen fixing lunch for all of us which included me, brother John and cousins Don and Keith. In the picture is the top of our large chicken house showing over the root cellar. My parents had leghorn layers and sold many of their eggs to a hatchery. Dad checked the eggs by witching with a wire. If the wire waved back and forth, the egg held what would someday be a rooster and if the wire made a circle the egg would become a hen. I don't know how accurate he was, but the hatchery bought the eggs anyway. The hens that stole out a nest of eggs and hatched chicks were taken care of and in a few weeks those chicks became our fried chicken dinner when we had company. As usual when Dad took a break he filled his pipe. This is the picture I used in a story I wrote and sold to Good Old Days magazine about our root cellar (the mound of rocks behind Dad) which we called the cave because it was a dark, damp, cold cement cellar in the ground with snakes in it sometimes. It sit right behind the house. Mom stored her canning from our large garden and fruit trees, plus strawberries from our garden patch and blackberries from the pasture on the two shelves over the bins of potatoes. That was our food for all winter. When a storm was brewing, we'd remove the wooden egg box on an old bench at the back of the cave and sit down, bundled up in a quilt. The egg box stored the eggs from our large flock of hens until it was full. What we didn't eat, Mom used to trade for groceries. That's why she always called shopping going to do her trading. Besides eggs, she traded blackberries, strawberries and potatoes. Storms in the middle of the night in tornado alley always kept Dad jumpy. Fearing a tornado, he paced from window to window to watch the sky. Us kids would get woke up after the rain started to pour, the wind roared and lightning split the sky to make a run for the cellar until the storm stopped. Dad must have liked to watch the storms. He stood in the doorway. As soon as it was safe, we all went back to bed. Stories had it that once before we moved to that farm a tornado came alongside the house without doing much damage. Our dog, Ginger, had a liking for all babies. She had carried a litter of kittens up and laid them on the back steps. The mother cat wasn't too happy with her. Another time, she fought with a mother hen to catch a new hatch of baby chicks to take care of. She gingerly carried each chick in her mouth down into the cave to keep safe for herself. We came home from town and found the hen angry with feathers fluffed up, attacking the dog from behind all the way to the cellar. On investigation, we found out why. About half of the hen's baby chicks were in the cave. We had to give them back to the hen and shut her up somewhere until Ginger forgot about adopting the chicks. The cement steps to the cave were always cool in the summer. Mom was always sending one of us to the cave to get her a jar of something to cook. I always hated finding a large black snake laying on the steps. Usually, I'd put up a fuss until Mom or Dad came and moved the snake. One time I was getting a jar off the shelf and noticed a jar next to it had a baby snake curled up in it. I quickly backed out of the cave, leaving the jar Mom wanted sit. Dad went down to the cave and put a lid on the jar with the snake in it and carried the critter away so I could go back after the jar of food Mom wanted. She canned meat as well as garden produce and fruit because we didn't have a freezer in those days to keep the hog or cow Dad butchered by hanging the carcass on the limb of the large mulberry tree behind the cave. It was a lot of work to can quart jars of food on hot summer days on a wood-burning cookstove. Our wooden refrigerator, called an icebox, was on the back porch where it was cooler. It had a space that held a large block of ice which kept it cool to hold leftovers and lemonade and ice tea until the block melted. Under the ice space the melting ice dripped into a pan Mom had to empty often. Each time we went to Schell City to get groceries and gas in the car, Dad stopped at the ice house next to the gas station and bought a block of ice. This all took place for us in the forties and fifties in Vernon County, Missouri. My how times have changed now, but for me it is fun to look back on those carefree days when my parents worked so hard to make their family a home and I enjoyed the freedom of exploring over our  farm.

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Signs of Spring Maybe

Signs of Spring Maybe Usually my first thought of spring comes with the robins. Might be too early for them to show up though. I suppose they're held up somewhere south by the Missouri snowstorms. However, I've been paying attention to other signs right here at home. Two weeks ago one evening after dark, I looked out the window and noted the Case tractor in the machine shed was glowing in the dark. It might have been the way the yard light on the barn shone on it. So I poked my head out the back door for another look. The west end of the machine shed was lit up all right, but no way was I going to tread through ice and snow in the dark to turn of a light when I knew I'd come face to face with a raccoon. The next morning when I turned off the light, one of the two wild hens who spent the winter in the machine shed was missing. That night the machine shed was lit up again. The next morning the other wild hen was gone, and both ends of the machine shed was lit up this time. I knew the reason was a wiley raccoon. He left tracks in the mud the size of a dog. He weighed almost as much as a dog, too. I'd say his eyesight and smell were failing him if he needed the lights on to catch the hens. Yesterday I noticed seven eagles in the cornfield across the road. They always show up in February, and each year the number of the flock increases. They spend a month or so in a small timber by us and go on to one of the rivers to nest and fish for food. The flock looked to be in a conference about how to get a chicken or one of my cats. They may have already had a rabbit dinner. The two rabbits I've seen scampering around here haven't been sighted for a few days. Not that it bothers me. The rabbits can eat their weight in garden plants and then some. Three days ago I let the chickens loose. They didn't care about the strong north wind, and that it was cold underfoot. Freedom felt good after being shut up since October. I've found they have good memories. Odd Man rooster headed for the barn, ready to go to his second home. I had the doors shut so he went on a sit down strike in front of the walk in door. He crowed for hens to join him. None did so he sat all day with a cold north wind ruffling his feathers as he stared wistfully at the door and crowded for me to open it up. At dusk, I shut the chicken house door and thought Odd Man went in. Next morning there he was just after sunrise, stubbornly doing his sit down strike again in front of the barn door. I don't what snow bank he hid behind, but he'd hid out. I was determined he wasn't going to be a raccoon's meal so I didn't open the barn door. That evening I didn't see Odd Man anywhere. Before I shut the chicken house door I peeked in. Odd Man was close to the door as if he might bale out if one of the roosters gave him a hard time. Two nights of being outside was enough. I felt as if we'd played a game of chicken for two days, and I won. Yesterday afternoon. was the goat revolt. I was about to leave home when I looked out the west window. All eleven head of goats were grazing by the garden. They had been shut in the barn for months. When Oliver Billy decides he has had enough of being closed in by four walls, he does something about it. This wasn't his first escape. He'd butted the roll door until he could squeeze though a crack, and every nanny followed him. I have wanted to let them go, but right now there is an ice berg in the gate hole, and the gate is open. The snow was supposed to blow on through and across the lot. That didn't happen. The goats came over the drift and were free, proving they always find an open gate hole. I picked up a two gallon pail I keep on the porch and walked outside where they could see me, calling, "Come on." The herd came running, but would only go over the icy mound if I went first so I walked them back to the barn and shut them in. I knew that wouldn't work for long so I improvised by using what I could find to close the gate hole. Note the picture and realize I'm not an experienced fence maker. Don't laugh until you had to get in a billy and his nannies.

Just as I was leaving for the third time to get the plywood, one of the nannies squeezed out the roll door again. She ran to me and followed me. I knew if I didn't hurry I'd have to get the other ten in again. Once I had the plywood in place, I opened the roll door and let the goats go. Even the freedom to roam where they live didn't satisfy Oliver Billy. He nosed my fence and butted the plywood to see if it would fall over. I popped him on the head with my pail. He got the message for the moment and backed up to follow the nannies to graze in the hay field.

What I found this morning was Oliver's message about my gate. He knocked the plywood down and went back to the barn to wait for to be fed. Just proves to me, I'm never going to win playing a game of chicken with him. Tomorrow is to be a warm spring day. Hopefully, the ice berg melts fast or softens up so I can shovel out enough of it to close the gate. If not, I'm going to be chasing goats daily and even in my dreams. If these are signs of spring, I'd rather go back to the tried and true signs like robins and morel mushrooms. The story I just posted about signs of spring is one of the many experiences that I've had taking care of animals. These real life experiences are what I use in my Nurse Hal Among The Amish series by Fay Risner. Nurse Hal has had many livestock related incidents that actually happened to me first. Want to read any of the Nurse Hal series and try to pick out what really happened to me first? Starting March 1st for a week my ebooks are going to be on sale for half price at smashwords.com.

Meet Curious Cat - continued

My cats are barn cats, very independent and usually appear for food, stand back until I feed them and then dig in. In no time, they disappear again. Curious Cat is different from the rest of the pack. My first sight of her last spring was when I headed for the chicken room in the loft. I reached the top of the stairs and saw the long haired, gray mother cat stretched out on the floor letting five kittens nurse. One a long haired gray like Mama, two black and whites, a dark gray and a long haired black kitten. I exclaimed to the alert mama that they were a pretty bunch. The sound of my voice sent the kittens racing to wedge themselves in a space behind two hay bales. All but one that is. One of the black and white kittens came toward me. I'm guessing they were two weeks old since they had lost the wobbly gait of newborns. I picked the kitten up and patted her, wondering why she was so friendly, and she began to purr. It's not usual to find a kitten that small that will take up with people. Usually, they hiss, spat and growl to keep people way from them. It occurred to me this kitten should be doing just that. She needed to be cautious if she was to make it to a adult cat. I took her to the spot I saw the others head and sat her down with them, hoping the hissing and spatting her siblings aimed at me taught the kitten what to do. A couple weeks later, the kittens were out of the loft and exploring the barn. Dangers were many in the barn such as wild animals after the cat food and stray tom cats. I spoke to the kittens. They scattered for cover all except the black and white kitten. She came to me. As I patted her, I heard a ruckus at the foot of the loft stairs. A grumpy, sitting hen came from the loft after some food and water. The long haired black kitten ran over her feet in his haste to hide. She mistook him for a rat and before I got to them the kitten was a goner. Lesson number one for the other four kittens. Grumpy sitting hens have the right to be irritable. They lay eggs for three weeks and spend three more weeks sitting on their eggs in a dark hiding place, only coming out for something to eat and drink. The next phase of the kittens lives I enjoyed watching. They spent hours tumbling over each other and batting at grass or a feather. Finally, the time came for the kittens to be taught how to hunt. Long haired Mama cat took the mirror image of her and headed to the machine shed to have him spend three weeks in training. She taught the kitten how to tight rope on the rafters to catch roosting sparrows and to sneak up on mice skittering on the dirt floor in the dark. She might not have been so selective, but he was the only one who seemed interested in learning. The dark gray and the black and white male didn't think they needed help. The friendly kitten preferred to hang out with me in the barn which wasn't teaching her how to be a cat. Finally, Sideways cat convinced the kitten to hunt with her. I didn't mind as long as they stuck to the hay field or the garden, but I worried about the kitten when I saw Sideways cat streak across the road without looking either way, down in the ditch and up the other side with the kitten behind her. They disappeared into the cornfield. I feared Sideways cat might get lost or lose the kitten. There was a reason I felt that way. She has a few loose screws from what happened three years ago. Sideways cat darted across the road and was struck by a vehicle. I didn't see it happen but know that must have been the cause of her infirmity. For a long time she was stiff and sore enough she rarely moved. I carried her food and water. When she could walk, the cat walked sideways. Her head went right and her backend listed to the left. I wanted to pass her many a time and was never sure which side to go around. Her peculiar gait finally got better, but her head cocks over to the side, and she twists her neck to look up at me. I shouldn't have worried. She took good care of the kitten, and soon the hunting lessons ended. One day while I made up the next morning's feed, the kitten showed me how much she'd learned from Sideways by batting at loose hay, smelling for mice and inspecting the corn sack. At that moment, I was hoping she didn't come up with a mouse. I've had experience with many of the fast, furry rodents jumping up to run away as I screamed and went the opposite direction. The kitten went back to following me while I d0 chores. She jumps up on the cat food container and rides with the lid over to the top of a lambing pen. As soon as I feed the cats, she rides back to the container and jumps down to gobble a few bites before she catches up to me to watch me feed the goats. She follows me upstairs and waits for me outside the chicken room. She has adopted me so I decided it was time to name her. I pondered how she stretches her neck out as she watches my every move closely. It's almost like she is job shadowing, but since she can't carry a bucket or hay bale I decided she must be just curious about what I do. So her name is Curious cat. Actually that name wasn't my first choice. Nosy cat came to mind, but I didn't stick with it. I was afraid I'd hurt her feelings.

Meet Curious Cat